Doodling #01
I don’t know how her friends could stand all of those talking about her children are “gifted” and this and that. Even she told me all of these stuff that I certainly don’t want to hear. I’m sick of these. All of these talks make me feel like a complete idiot. A loser. A dumb college student who doesn’t get into a fancy ivy league university. “When I was a kid, my mom brought me to a test, they tested my IQ, and I got an incredibly high score as a proof that I’m really gifted”. That’s what my aunt always said about her to me EACH AND EVERY DAY. “Oh and also, Lily is awesomely gifted. Just like me!” She said with her arrogant and nasty voice. “Uh but she’s lazy. She never put any efforts on anything like math or science - especially physics. But well, you know what? That’s one of the most common yet classic characteristics of gifted kids. They are lazy but they still get a much better score than their ordinary friends who put so much, SO MUCH (yeah, she repeated the “so much” twice) efforts on those things.” The only word that came up from my mouth after hearing this is a simple “O” without any tone. It’s not even a word. It’s a letter. Honestly, I’m completely offended. I’m a type of person who has determination instead of natural-talent-of-problem-solving. I put so much efforts on everything I work on. I was almost burst out into tears by her arrogance. It was really hard for me. I stepped on my shower. Pouring tons of warm water into my head hoping the water will clear my mind. Then I remember something. My chemistry professor. He is a very young man that I would guess he’s only mid twenties. One day on a optional lab session, me and two other friends had a chit-chat with him. We talked about almost everything; from chemistry problems until his life as a professor in a community college. He told us that he is happily married now with two little kids (one was just born a week from that day), beautiful wife, hold a master degree from UC Berkeley, and a decent job. He chose to be a teacher even though he was offered a job in marines with a much better pay than a community college professor. Of course, we were amused with his dedication and achievement. Good grief. He’s super smart that he finished off grad school at the age of 22. One of my friends said this as a response, “Dang professor! You’re so lucky to be gifted like that. I’m 23 and I messed up my college career. Wait. My community college career.” I thought he is going to laugh at himself and said, “Of course I’m lucky! I got into gifted kids society”. Rather, my professor said, “(solemn expression) Hey, I’m not lucky nor specially gifted. I’m extremely blessed. I could not achieve all of these things without God’s presence.” I was in state of disbelieve. I’ve never met a science teacher that has strong belief in God and very, very humble. My thought about his saying in chemistry lab wakes me up from my 25 minutes hot shower that is clearly too long for a summer day like this. I wonder, why he could be very humble but my aunt and her children could not? I just can’t understand. Her kids, try to beat me in every aspect because they think they know MORE than me (even though they are only 12 and 7). Arrogance, arrogance, arrogance. Do you have any synonyms for arrogance? Because seriously, I’m tired of typing “arrogance”. I was raised in a normal Christian family, not a kind with special powers or high IQ. My mom is a religious housewife. My dad owns a physiotherapy clinic and a full-time volunteer lawyer for labor association. My sister is still on her preteen that I concern, needs a full support from her older sister. And here is me. Studying abroad and live with my arrogant aunt and soon with my other demanding aunt. I feel like I need to go home for summer. Meet my family, where I can be myself. Where I don’t need to pretend that I have interest in science. Where I can just play my piano and flute without any harsh comments on how my Debussy Prelude sounds weird and may trigger my aunt’s migraine. For the very first time, I miss my home back and I WANT TO GET OUT OF THIS HOUSE. VERY SOON.
Debussy Preludes that gives my aunt headache: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=t1-Dk9Jd0bA
This is my chemistry class in which I got a lot of inspirations. Just in case you’re curious about it.
